The Other Facet of Same Coin [Metamorphism of Man]

This Rashlaxmi Narayan is really a very interesting personality .
He used to pass the story as the wheel of time progresses.Here is
another self stated past of his life :

I am an extremely emotional guy albeit it doesn't seem anyhow,
thinking always in terms of emotion.It is another thing that no
one ever has understood my unconditional emotion except
my closest.Outer world is completely different with respect to
inner world for each individual.Inner world is like a beautiful
dream where everything seems to happen in tandem with the
silent pace of our wisdom.When I return back in my house after
leaving the anger at my desk in the office,I compel to start
thinking about myself ,as feeling alone always ,as if without any
shelter ,deprived of something unknown which doesn't seem to
step it's pace towards me with open arms.In opposition going
away from me ,leaving me with a heavy heart .Past is very hard
to forget, left me alone with a blank life.There is no way to
express my emotion and so continuously enervating my
identity.There is no way to escape rather to pinch it inside
the heart .It takes a lot of effort every day to keep it there to
remain sangfroid.So much energy leaking everyday to remain
compose .Consequence is very appalling .My personality has
become so irritating that even a simple word could irk me.
At the time of joining this company,I had a dream of building a
beautiful twinkling world that can glimmer with intense
glow as the time passes.But things always do not go in right way .
Most of time ,it goes in contrary.One such wrong move and my
world of dream has been thrashed for more than a year.
Emotion has been misused so badly that I never thought it before .
I got it very hard and embarrassing.Heart started changing so
rapidly like a storm which wants to flow away everything that
comes in its way.Emotion started dying and
hatred ,rudeness,arrogance,shamelessness took a
stronghold instead .I became emotionless without any mercy like
a dangerous man for this so called corporate world.
Not caring about any one, with the primary emphasis on my respect.
I almost forgot myself, my values and a humanity which I used to
boast of .When I look back into the past one year ,comparing the
present one , there is complete human metamorphism with a sea
change.An impractical man has been evolved to keep pace with
this so called ephemeral world without caring anything about
human values .This is been so much polluted that, it has
poised the inherent character that was impossible to get
adulterate.I don't want to roam with this facade but circumstances
left me only to choose this one.I am really sorry.

What could be done ,you tell me !!!!!!!!!!!!

Make Mistakes But Don't Repeat Them

The Best Is Good Enough For Me

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Holy Man And Hobson's Choice

I don’t like vainglory. Such an acrid animadversion always aired in my heart from farthest terrain of countryside.It propounded brio probity imparting frission in mind. Why they are gesticulating me supercilious causing lachrymose moment forever? I am assumed a bete noire because of inveighing false fulsome note against that Holy Man (said by this world).This isn’t a farrago of multifarious thoughts? It seems equivocating to get the idea about my tenet as I have high resolution of imagination right now. So don’t portend and predicate about the outcomes in future. It is not warning but a signal. Let me segue expatiating to relate protean facets of my randomness. It is a constitutional for the inveterate ratiocination of canard by the FOP to gainsay and defenestrate the idea inculcated into those innocent minds that might become destructive.
It always puts me in nadir leaving only a Hobson's choice to opt.

Beauty Queen

I was slowly walking inside the AirTel outlet, and there she was permeating her smiling around the vicinity of that confined place . A smiling cheek so pretty, your heart ached. Those eyes, a question and a smirk hidden in them, the eyebrows, betraying a hint of surprise. Strands of hair on the forehead escaping the neat little bun on the top of the head. The bun was shaking slowly with air from AC.A tiara that didn't quite belong there. Pearl necklaces making the black dress look even darker. A cigarette in one of her hands and her chin on the other. Lips that seem not to smile at what you are saying but at something that is right behind you.The fragrance of perfume permeating from her hair , making the surroundings perfect for to go in unconsciousness.
I was transfixed. Just stood there looking at her till she left the place .

Human Psychology [An Experiment]

Tonight (JAN,14^th,2008) I left the office at 8.11 exactly after 9 hours and 10 minutes of work .Because of allotment of live project model ,there is scarcity of time .Owing to this there is reduction of article writing frequency .As last two days (weekend) were difficult ,suffering with cold and high temperature. So no more work today to add something for tomorrow. I have been thinking about the article (a rubbish work, for most guys) to write something that is real and practical .Enough has said about the imaginary world and fiction .Now let us talk about real world. Some guys laughed at me sneakily while I was walking at downstairs of DLF IT Park .I saw them, smiled myself without letting know others. How lower are they at thinking?

What I am going to tell you is that, it is real story but extended with some fantasy, embellished with some imaginary thoughts and amalgamated with different orientations.

There was a student in Aerospace Engineering Department of IIT KHARAGPUR.

His name was Rashlaxmi Narayan (R. Narayan) very reticent to make petty badinage with others .Though he was an average student but the depth of thinking par excellence.

I don’t know ,why the people always implying something out of something else .Always people have tendency to relate one thing to another ,assuming the certain conditions valid and true. This assumption is the root cause of most of chaos .For example:

“Love” =>“Marriage”, “Emotional”=>”Gentle”,” Endurance”=>”Weaknesses etc.

There are certain things in this world which are indefinable, some are definable but the definition is being changed after some period .Those can’t be bind into one definition rather need to define according to time and situation. Few are defined facts that never change. One example related to this article is the relation between Thinking (Imagination) and Intelligence. These two things are completely independent .It might be possible that someone is most intelligent but his thinking level is not so deep and vice versa. Though most of us knew that scientists went exploring the matter upto atomic level assuming each component as an individual entity. Then they found the relationship among them but we are always flowing opposite of that trend .How nonsense is this world, first making the relationship and then exploring the object. So thinking and intelligence depend upon different parameters .For example Intelligence depend upon how frequently human brain can process the problem and handle the situation rapidly. It is related to frequency of processing the problem.

On the other hand thinkng doesn’t depend upon the frequency but on the steady implementation of brain thoughts. It depends on the way of looking at things around us. Thinking is the right way of exploring the human brain field. It can be developed but the intelligence can only be utilized efficiently and effectively.

So R Narayan was an average at intelligence but very deep at thinking .He used to attend all classes period normally but very reluctant to share his thoughts to others .I have been keeping eyes at him for months .I wanted to make him a good friend .

Initially he didn’t give much importance to me and tried to avoid me but after several earnest talks he slowly started sharing some strange facts an unbelievable story with me.

Very recently he made a big chaos at IIT KHARAGPUR ,that has oscillated the basis of my alma mater .No one has thought it ever before .He had been gone for several DC (Disciplinary Committee for penalty of any crime) procedures . Finally he got punished with severe penalty but given freedom to study as a normal student.

Though the sin was horrible but less affecting for others (Guess what sin was that? Best answer would get a small treat from me, trust me!)

All the students, professors, officers, workers used to look at him strangely, taunting him.

But R Narayan was still, somber and calm. Even in the class students were ridiculing him, embarrassing him, and sometimes throwing something intentionally at him. This much of harassment are being imparted to him .How strong he was internally that can bear those petty remarks .Specially bad remarks from Girls. .I can realize the severity of pain by those comments, especially that which were thrown by Girls and Ladies. Last 5 months of my past life also has been passed with such type of rigmarole, a vanquished dark age of my life but got a straight line diversion of my energy space. Yeah to get something I have to sacrifice a handful. How painful is ambience to endure scathing smile of girls. But he was man of great personality having amazing power of endurance to sustain in difficult situation.Perhaps the emotional potential, which has been developing through those remarks, was his strength. And he has the skill to give a way to that emotion for constructive work of human being.

He used to say me that make yourself so strong that you would become independent of all these worldly remarks and then you would evolve yourself to plan a new venture that will permeate without demarcation and limits.

People used to say him most egoist but very simple and gentle in my opinion. He had been telling that if someone comes near to you with ego simply neglect them but if one comes without haughtiness, make a good relationship with him. Relationship should not be based on ego and arrogance. Since you (me) are not among those arrogant people , so my best friend at KHARAGPUR.

All key people knew him, from lowest level to Director. Frequently saw the pointing finger at him by people all around there. This all things he had done to make an ambience suitable for to process an experiment on human psychology, especially where there is gathering of most intelligent and genius people of India, a live experiment that is his realm of interest.

He was high alert because of the meticulous attention that was being kept on his activity by administration department but the medium class people were unaware of this fact.

Normally students used to say him psychologically unfit. A foolish guy not talking with anyone, living in his own world. I have observed that when you do any thing continuously for long time, people start thinking psychologically hindered and undeveloped about you. Even many had told him to consult with psychiatrist. But what he was doing for, to succeed the project smoothly.

Such a big project without any expense! He had collected all the necessary equipment and material required for experiment at his doorstep.Petty remarks,embarrassment,mocking, ridicule, staring look etc were the source of information through which he was sensing the mental status. This reaction from the people was the tool though which he was reviewing the people psyche .Though the people were making fun of him but he was gauging each and every people’s mind without caring of respect.

He has the ability to sense the presence of people or any moving body around his defined system of test, almost 360 º sense views. Observation intensity was so strong that even a smallest change in the surrounding can be detected .When his mind field was being activated at high level alert; you can’t trick him in any way. Diminutive vibration of air he could sense. When I was in SCOUT & GUIDE camp, some years ago, someone was telling that Weden Powel (Inventor of Scout & Guide) had the sense to find the direction of path of people in Jungle by just inhaling the smell coming from the leaves of tree around there. That much of presence of sense was in him.

One thing is pretty sure that human being is having the most complex psychology on the earth. It is indefinable. No one can completely understand the human psyche. It is beyond of scope letting know others without hearing a word or reaction from their mouth. If you want to know others poke them to throw some reaction. Action them to get some reaction and that reaction would be your source of information to approach your goal. But reaction should be analyzed thoroughly and impartially no part of it should be thrown into dust bean because hidden info could be digging out from that garbage also. I already went into this trap several times. So folks, action are not important but the reaction. If someone is very unresponsive to react, it means he is either very smart or a complete asinine.

But R Narayan was so meticulous at psyche gauging that even if you don’t give the answer, he can evaluate you. The concept for him was to just ask any question and you are through, no way to escape from him in any way. Yes, whether the question is being answered or not, gesture and facial expression can be read by him.

Few lines before I mentioned the term “without any expense”. It does not mean that he didn’t spend anything .Le me put a corrigendum over here that he spent intellectual property instead of money.

I almost forgot to mention that he has lost his moral, dignity, respect all precious things for a normal human being .Even his life was at stake. That is all sacrifice. But here is the point that he used to share with me that those intellectual property should not be put into other hands to misuse it. Rather assume that it is always in your hands and is so protected that no body can even dare to have a look on it. It only implies that your morality and dignity should not be defined by someone else rather by yourself. Let them say whatever they say .It is not like a machine that is yours but the remote of it is in other hands and they are steering you according to their wish. So think that it is completely in your control. In nutshell, you should not be defined by someone else but you make your definition.

This is the way to protect our morality but at the same time we should respect it more than anything. We should simply love it then it would get meaning and its identity.

He was having the strength to devise something new. I bow his strength and courage to experiment a new thing .He has the force to face the world and give them something before he die.

I believe that –

Nothing can prevent that Ultimate Force which wants to bud though some medium.

Like in this case medium was R Narayan. Every day he was collecting the data, analyzing it. Four years went, he got several new inferences, which were all, and he studied at IIT.

Now the time to leave his alma mater .He wanted to go for higher study, made application .Top university of US has offered him to join there on the basis of the project he had completed on human psychology. But still he didn’t reveal the truth of Experiment

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See Next Article: “A Beautiful Mind”

Dedicated to my friend Mousami Srivastava (ASE, NPD) and Pravin Janardan Hagavane (ASE, NPD) and my department “New Product Development”.

ULTIMATE GOAL (A SPECULATION)

The Erevmax Technologies Pvt. Ltd. is really going to metamorphose my life, this is indeed a corporate platform to establish myself. It is my basic though I can’t repay for it, you may agree with my opinion or not but this is my perception. It is like my family which chides sometimes, sometimes loving too.

It is 11.30 AM, Tuesday. I am looking at smiling photo of Divya Jyoti, which is on my computer Desktop .How cute is her smile. Music is playing on my computer.
Suddenly I started sinking in my thoughts and steadily took a pen and notebook and my hand automatically ran scribbling …and here is my figment of imagination.

When I feel alone ,I go into the depth of thinking to look for something new and miraculous .Something pure , pristine and flashing ,that lights me ,elevates me to remain active throughout journey of my life .

Some questions always bug my brain occasionally, where are we heading? What we are and why we are born? Are births and deaths only process? Is it infinite cycle that never ends without any results or is there an ultimate goal for God, that is still hidden and mystery for human being .What does God want to process us through this cycle. Is this goal is endless or achievable for God himself.

A big, indeed a profound question for most of thinkers .Though many had given explanation according to their perception but it is not so simple to answer but simple because “When the solution is simple God is answering “.

I believe, God always follows simplest way to tryst with his own creation. Everything in nature follows an easy path; yeah it is beyond of our scope to sense even those simple ways. But once, it is discovered we find it very simple. This is not the problem of nature but ours because we are just thinking complex. This earthy world is so complex that always taking even a simple thing very labyrinthine, unnecessarily trying to extract petty meaning out of it. I have heard something about Albert Einstein, watched his life history and found, he was the simplest man, in my opinion, over the past time.

I have slightly curved my running to understand some facts about nature .Now come back on our standing and way.

All of us are aware of fact that, there is an advancement of human brain intelligence, behaviour, standard of life since the stone to modern age. Now in this modern era, what we are looking at this time would become older after a few moments. What I mean is that this age is changing most rapidly than ever before. It seems as if we are so ambitious to achieve the pinnacle that will terminate in a moment. This rapid speed seems hazardous for me but it is natural outcome, so it can’t be checked. I am little bit suspicious that whether history were using larger part of intelligence or modern time is using but it is almost sure that we are now more organized ,sober ,good but at the same time dangerous too. Over the past time ,there is spreading of technology in every paradigm ,what one was taking time to achieve earlier ,could be achieved in few moment More rapid, fast pace, cutting age technology, fine tech thinking, sharp brain, revolutionary spreading on global and gulp them all the Universe is the few buzzword of the recent time. All these things imply something, something mysterious. God wants to signal something to us. He wants to convey some message so that human being can receive the pulse and prepare for those to face and sail through it to move forward comfortably. As the time would pass, we will become more advance, more modern, more intelligent, applying more brain space. And if this process will continue we will be achieving more power, more pulse recognition, closer to God. More close, some more close, some more as we go more and more close to God, though the gap between us and God would be lesser but the pace would become more and more slow and short. We would start looking our glimmering goal. And hoping that ,to achieve the incarnation someday. But in between God will play with us and there is collapse of all modern paradigm, a complete destruction of modern age, as if it has reached at pinnacle. Why is this? Whenever there is any civilization is on the verge of sparkle, God would destroy it .It is another aspect that the form of destruction coming in many ways whether it is war, earthquake, deep impact with celestial body.

Though we are more organized in most of area, doing function in a very systematic manner but there is a lot more randomness in another realm. The overall result is the increment of Entropy.

I don’t know the god intention to do all these things .What does he want from us? Doesn’t he like organized system? Though he does his creation in a very systematic and organized way. Does he only want more randomness?

We all know that the Energy of Universe is constant. And I believe that God is also using that much of energy for his spatial creation. Only thing is that he is shuffling this energy space from one place to next, from one form to another .Energy space is taking form of celestial body , the Energy –Mass conversion law given by Albert Einstein. All things happening in space can be thought of the extension of Energy. Energy is everything but it can only be perceived intangibly. It is the crux of all God creation. Assuming that the constancy of it, still he wants to play with randomness. Creating system without disturbing the energy spectrum, though always net result comes to be as the increment of Entropy (Randomness) of Universe .As this is the law of nature that Universe always tries to maximize the entropy. And consequence is overall increment of Randomness.

More and more randomness,only randomness? I don’t know the God’s ultimate goal but he always tries to maximize the Entropy of the Universe .Might be ,this is the Ultimate goal and foundation of law’s but when will it get maximized ? Will it continue forever? As this is so simple .A simple law of God –

Entropy of the Universe tries to get maximized.

This is also a Law discovered much before. This is completely my thoughts.
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