Uncertain Life

Hi..This is Rashlaxmi Narayan,a unique personality in every way as every individual on this planet is. I spent almost half of life but couldn't gain the sought height as was expecting .So I have much spare time to think on petty matters. Thinking is natural for human being, hence for me. I am thinking about the uncertainty of life, though it seems philosophical but it has some relevance with our practical life as well .Well I don't write this blog to preach you something but to illustrate something real about our life. We are living life, assuming that certain events wouldn't occur as such though those are very rare and much accountable. We are taking life as if it is much secured than anything though the reality is opposite. Life is not at all secured anyway. We used to plan our future before it comes in reality but does it mean that we would be successful to achieve them.
I have been observed several instances where they dreamed something but happened something unpredictable. What I am going to write is the mix of real and imaginary incidents.
Let me start with a real example when I was in IIT Kharagpur, I used to travel to kolkata frequently with some friends. One day we were sitting in a local train and the train was at full speed .We were joking, some of them were gossiping as if everything is normal .I was looking outside the window enjoying the beauty of greenish landscape. The man sitting opposite to me was yawning .I saw he stood up and went near the entrance to feed some fresh air. He was still not completely conscious about the train that is at full speed and any minor mistake can put his precious life in danger. The train began slowing down and he got curiosity to know which station is coming up. He leant forward at the entrance holding firmly the gate rod with one hand and suddenly a pole stroked him at his head before I shout to save from that. We felt a silence for a second. He slowly left his hand as if nothing happened and wants to let himself fall freely out of train. He fell down on the ground before we come there. There was no pain, no injury, no blood, nothing, absolutely normal but he was lying. The train was about to stop. We quickly went there to see him but he was sleeping The Death. The Ultimate Truth of Life. Just a few moments ago he was a living human "The Wonder of Nature" but now he is just the "Nature". He completely forgot himself what he was a while ago…..
He went on his birthday party with some friends to celebrate it. Many of his well wisher already wished him to live longer life but unaware of the truth that he will prove all those wrong.All friends have enjoyed the grand party, boozed heavily, danced in that club like they are giving him a farewell from his life. All said tata, goodnight and bye-bye to one another, hoping to meet in next fresh morning in the same office. He was riding on the bike with his closest friend who was on the other bike driving alone in the midnight on a silenced highway. They were singing, occasionally laughing on each other, talking about their girl friends. Some time they were chasing each other like young boy but God was planning something. Something which was not acceptable any way. He doesn't want to see them happy. After sometime, there was a 90 turn of the highway. His friend saw a trolley approaching him very fast ,he shouted at him to take his own path but it was too late. No.No.Ahh………After a short moment his friend could not realize the silence, his eyes were kept opened, completely agog as if nothing has happened. It took some seconds to realize that he is holding something heavy without any shape and structure……And his friend was not crying but was complete mum........
They joined in the same office with a gap of few months. He saw her first time and lost his heart. She was oblivious of the fact that someone is sneakily gazing her. When his look went excessive she realized there is some matter and start noticing his activity. Few days passed away gazing each other but couldn't able to talk one another .She started researching about him and found he is not only a good guy but talented also, a PGDM holder from IIMA and B.Tech from IIT Kharagpur. But the girl was so simple and innocent that she couldn't even realized that she has an important asset sufficient to attract a nice and talented human being. She started dreaming about him. Though it was very insecure situation for her to expect something from a guy with whom she didn't even speak a word. But when one's heart falls nobody can save it. Both were making conversation to each other with their eyes only. They started dreaming about their future life, a happy and prosperous life which was yet to come to make them colorful and memorable for whole life. How beautiful was their dream.14 months had been passed away with a hope that one day will come in their life when they will share a word, "The First Word" .How would be that indefinable happiest moment .Perhaps that one moment would be like many years which will give so much inexpressible joy that is sufficient to live them happily forever. That very moment would be like a complete silence when they will lose themselves in the hands of each other. That moment would be so eventful that even they want to talk but would not able to speak out due to the enormous joy filled in the heart. I believe that moment would be inexpressible .It would be dishonesty to capture those feelings into the words. After all, that is the confluence of two divine souls, who were waiting for more than a year to greet each other, to welcome whole heartedly. It is very true that dream is always pleasant without any danger but in most of the cases it is wrong. In 15th month he took leave for few days. She came in the next morning but was sad, for not having him in the office. She waited for the next day but it was same like the last day. Somehow she managed to see his leave card and found that he is on leave for fifteen days. Fifteen days! How will I survive in these fifteen days without having a look on him? Well 14 days have been passed away anyhow, hoping that he will be hers only. Next morning will be the happiest one when she will see him. At that night she barely took some sleep. In the next morning, she reached the office 2 hours before the office time with an excuse of doing extra work and was desperately waiting for him. Two hours has also spent but nothing, no sign of hers dream come true. Almost half a day has been passed away, she listened an announcement in the office to keep a 2 minute silence to pay a tribute in his memory and keep his soul in harmony, left a question on her expectation forever. She couldn't believe on her ears. She lost everything in a moment .Her beautiful dream has been thrashed in few seconds .How deeper was her agony .She lost her speech for many days ,still hoping that her prince will come one day to embellish her barren life .But the reality is not the dream……….

So folks these are the few examples. World is full of such examples but are we thinking anything in this regard. Answer is NO. It is not important to become famous for every one because practically it is impossible but how we are living our life is extremely important. This life is one time opportunity by God. Every moment, there is danger of death .It is unavoidable but even then we are thinking that I will certainly live this much years. He will certainly live that many years. How foolish we are! What we are now might be dead in few seconds but everyone is trying to delude himself that he will remain alive but someone else will die.
I believe that, best way to live the life is to live it your own way without caring about the others, what they say. This is completely your life. Do whatever you want to do in your life .Break all the rules that have stopped you to become good. Don't care society that has put a barricade to grow you ahead .Don't let them put any kind of obligation on you who interfere with your enjoyment, your life, your existence, your identity. You should have complete command over it. Why will I spend my precious life like a Dog who has to obey owner's order with a wagging tail? No Way. At least not me. I did everything whatever I liked in my life till now but with a caution that what I am doing, might not heart someone. I don't know my way, where I have to go. Because everything has ending here at last. I am satisfied with my present. I am trying to catch this moment only not caring about the future because it is not sure if I would remain with you after this moment or you will hear news that "Rashlaxmi Narayan" is "Dead".