I lost when you smile, I cried when you feel sad. Wanted to be your friend forever, Couldn't you let me come ever.
You can't be so wrong, I know But won't you let me feel for a while. I can live with this for whole life, Give me one moment for sake of my life. I wanted to make you happy, Oh no what I did, you felt so unhappy. Couldn't forgive myself, waiting for you, Still I am same, wishing for you.
Your smile is fragrance, Still make your presence alive Though you are miles away, I am acquainted with your vibes. Don't let me die alive Just for a while let me shelter you, I will be complete let me pamper you.
There is last breath left, Come over here let me see you again, I won't remain the same, when you see me again.
I pray to God, You keep smile, Never feel sad, remember me a while, Oh my eternal love, When you feel a life of solitude, I will whisper in your ear, You will behold me with your eyes.
Folks read it very intently and slowly otherwise it is just a few lines. Find your leisure time don't be in hurry. You must be aware of that human mind didn't get anything new easily. Always it makes some analogy to understand something which is completely nascent. If it doesn't make out some relationship with earthy body then it is assumed to be mere futile. Any thing which makes sense to mind seems to be realistic. Suppose you discover something ,which is naive to scratch out some meaning ,it is not important for earthy people .There are still tons of things ,that would be finest area of research, hidden and mysterious in the grave of nature. We are not extending our imagination beyond the things around us. This mind is full of contents, it is whole universe. It can be extracted much more than what we are thinking up to. The only thing we have to do is to put effort ,apply the maximum stress on it and the ideas will start flashing out all around our head like the rays emanating from a intense glowing mass.
Well many of us don't bother to preserve those ideas as they come spontaneously like a tiny flash. It doesn't matter what is the state of mind and body, the mind keeps working all the time. Any time anywhere you have been realized that while thinking something, something else has stroked and you felt… oh my god, this is really a miraculous concept why don't we work towards this but in reality it seems very difficult to implement. And at that very moment the concept seems worthless and the excitement you felt just a while ago, vanished away. That is how one important idea has been discarded though it could have been very fruitful if some thoughts have been put on it. This continuum goes on through your entire life and one of masterpiece of Nature died away without anything which was full of everything.
Now what I am going to tell you is meaningless conversation for you and perhaps for me too. But meaningless has own existence. Whether you follow mine or not that decides your sane and rationale. I don't compel you to believe but at least you can put your kind attention to this whole idea of foolishness.
How can the Imagination imagine? Imagination that is real because it is perceptible by mind but not real because it is supposition. What do you think about cogitating for Imagination? Keeping attention and considering about imagination seems rational but it is not so easy. Expressing thoughts on pen and paper is so difficult because there is no way, shape, structure or any format of emotion. Every thought is consequence of emotion. Let me try it anyhow. What human being is pondering about something is normal, which is called Imagination. Now if this mind is being activated slightly above without being disturbed by your ambiance, it would reach on second stage (not full) i.e. beyond the normal state. This stage is like relaxed mind where everything seems to be in equilibrium. Now hold on for sometime over here. Make your surrounding trouble free without any noise or anything that deviates your mind. If you will be disturbed at this point, the elevated stage will recover back. The surge of energy accumulated at your mind will disperse. Now put stronghold on yourself at this stage and ponder here then you will be elevated slightly more and start realizing the complete second stage of mind. At this stage you will see how the imagination is being imagined. Everything seems floating, your thoughts, dream, wishes; even your body will feel weightlessness. Now suppose if anyone wants to lift up his body against gravity, he can do so. It would be like completely unbelievable state even all real things start behaving as virtual. So the host can manipulate anything according to his mind. There is complete freedom, no rule, no structure, no shape just the condensed cloud of energy and that source of energy can be shaped in any form lived or dead. You can be dead in a moment, could be alive after sometime beyond the rule governed by nature. Dead or Alive is not different but two form of energy out of nothing. They can fluctuate into each other without being implied by any force. It would happen like everything is so easygoing. Completely spontaneous. That is called independence of Energy.
Dead <=> Alive
can be thoughtful and interlinked. Then death will not remain a mystery and would be subtle part of energy cycle of Nature. There would not be fear anymore for death and it would be equivalent to be alive. Everyone can embrace any out of both without fear. And world will realize the independent existence of
Dead <=> Alive Equilibrium
What we call it the duality of life cycle.
I don't think it is beyond the scope of nature; after all we are part of it and still have a lot to explore.
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Second Episode
One good day, while he was about to step up in the cab, she chirpily told him to sit on the front seat as one vacant seat was there. He did it giving a silent consent to her and settled on the seat beside one of female colleague. Well that was the first time she spoke a word to him. He was too excited and happy on that day that finally she shared something for him. He would be good friend of her. But at the same time much wary to confront.
That was fortunate day, after all someone recognized him finally and trying to get access of him. When they wrapped up with their daily work around 8 PM evening, she gently headed towards his bay and started whispering with his colleague (Shalini) beside whom he sits in the organization. He felt good that she is nice, interested to make friendship. Though as normally happens, Girls are always expecting that boys should talk first and care for her, so she didn't gave any direct cue to him to take a short stroll. He keeps his eyes on every detail of her. She talked for sometime with Shalini and left the office to catch the cab. There was no any sign of prelude of being arrogant. But you know those who used to be quite and silent all the time but performing well in their way of working, are not to be assumed asinine.
Before that, after a few days of joining that organization he searched in the "Orkut" about her "Anjali Awasthi". What is this, nice…Good profile. So many testimonials from her friends, huh all bullshit, aren't they figurehead, writing crap all time trapping her for being haughty. They are not assumed to be good pals who publicize her facade. Usually girls got many testimonials on the orkut and used to boast of her being talented, focused and angel but the ground reality is almost the opposite most of the time. It has been seen when he used to surf through others profile, many writes for "about me: My Friends Testimonial says everything." in the orkut profile as the first impression of being fake.
Almost all are pretended statement exaggerating false quality and skill. If they are so nice then what is their use for the others by the way. Just to impress the others profile visitor or keep elevated themselves filled with pretentious arrogance. What is of being so good? Did you help anyone even ones in a lifetime. Have you taken any step to tackle the problem for those who suffer everyday even for a scrap of bread? Did you contribute for any victim without any expectation? You won't do such thing but yes you can put many testimonials on the orkut .Not up to that, he saw many times girls pleading for this and if they are not being pacified with splendid one, break the friendship or will ignore them for few months. This is the friendship meant for them who pretend to be calling themselves Angles. What type of arrogance is this?He doesn't even tell them that they are qualified to be called as real arrogant. Arrogance has much application and being a real arrogant is itself a quality.
I swayed away far from my compendium; let us resurrect on his examination.
That evening was last when he stepped down and exchanged an unsteady look before she went on holiday for more than three weeks. Next day as usual her friend (Gunjan Chauhan) was alone in the cab, gave him a missed call to hurry up for the office. He got into the cab on the front seat straightaway without having spread his sight of vision beyond his walking steps. No blabbering heard from behind, driver is speeding up the cab as if he feels that weight on tyre is minimal today, only two person, so he doesn't need to take care of them if the cab will have an accident only two lives would be in danger. What happened to Driver! It has been usually seen that, when there is one or two person in the cab, he used to pull away unnecessarily. Doesn't he get some common sense? How come! If he has little, he would have become more than what he is. Huh… leave it.
He peeked behind, she was not there. A sad day again, whole day was like suffering, left the office early and falls asleep on his bed without even taking dinner at that night. Many days have been passed away, waiting for her to gaze smiling face. Meanwhile the route and roster for them have been changed and so they will be traveling in different cab now onwards. Holy shit, this is really very ridiculous discretion taken by the management. At least they should have given some more time to get a chance to hobnob with her.
Now wait has been last today. She came today just in front of him, unwillingly chatting with her colleague (Preeti Kant) who used to sit opposite to him on the other side of bay.
He was transfixed to see her, she looks absolutely bewitching today as if she just waked up from bed after snatching a sound sleep, splashed her face with cold water and took a straight way to make her presence. Somehow he managed to turn away his eyesight from her as she too made an eye contact with him for few seconds. His heart was pounding rapidly, got blushed letting his eyelid drop slowly and fixed on the computer screen without arresting others look upon him.
Oh my god she is so daring, he was giggling quietly.
See next Episode when he got to know the real about her.
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First Episode
Hi Reader “Rashlaxmi Narayan” is back,he was on research,something real incident for four months duration.Here is his research :
Being an IITian is of no use until they have some thing lateral. After all IITs are not recognized because of their brand or standard but those are the excellent and bright students of India who touched the pinnacle and gave them the unique standard to qualify as a top Institution of India. So Rashlaxmi Narayan is one of them who use to think independently, though it seems to others that he is so arrogant because of being reticent but reality was far from there. He doesn’t see himself as very special or different from others but yes, he is different or special in way as any child of God is. Being a natural and simple is so difficult in this so called selfish world. He wanted to evolve himself naturally, being untouched by ethics, rules, tradition, beliefs and tenet.
For example let us think for sometime, about a new born baby, who is completely innocent and oblivious of the surrounding, has been kept at a place where there is everything natural, adaptable ambience to grow him naturally without being touched by any kind of cultural and social life. After a few years how will he become? It is very simple to answer; no doubt he would be very natural butingrained with natural events. But any way he would be closest to nature. Far from haughtiness, bound of culture, principle and complexities of earthy human being, he could see the amazing nature of God being himself not others.
But what about those who were born from us, lived in a society but throwing hands and legs to survive naturally. How difficult would be for them to even take a single breath in this so called modern and high standard, state of the art world. Let him make clear over here that he is not against the progress or prosperity but to cope with this world of being exposed from such types of Demons which always coexist with Angels. So running away from this is like being cowardice. He can understand the world very well not only with evidence but to support that he uses to experiment himself and others for every moment. Here he comes with another real experiment by him after being muted for four months.
He is fond of cynosure but very scary that every good is supported by dangerous instinct. So handling the beauty is so difficult, in relation to that he wanted to know what is the reality behind the sublime beauty of Girls, what are those supported by. It is a story about a girl who seems to be very innocent but reality is something else. You decide and ponder over it, if it is countable for you ever in life.
She was very nice and attractive, so cute indeed .He saw her first time in the office on the first day. She is laborious and studious as well. Well, everything was going good and normal. So he wanted to be good friend of her only as it is very difficult to find one who has those attributes alone. But looking someone from some distance is not as much worthy before being acquainted with her. As it always seems pretty when you look someone from somewhere because at that time you are only thinking about her beauty, facial attraction, her good gesture, smile, physique and blah blah… ignoring her inherent property and demerits.
As being a student of science it is very natural to think about anything scientifically. Scientist, when he tries to find the parasite in host, keeps the specimen for incubation period and trying to feed the parasite with all the necessary nutrients to appear it abundantly. When it appears, it is assumed to be diseased tissue or else healthy.
So he knows well enough that before being tested on his threshold it would be distressful to shake his hand with her. After all he was gem as far as the human being is concerned, always keeps others as the top priority to not heart in any manner even if he has been misused by several before that. So he wanted to decipher her original face that was hidden behind her skin. Always one question in his mind used to swirl, is she really having a beautiful face with good heart or in contrary only the skin?
He started gazing her for few days .For some days she ignored him but then she also used to look at him sometimes laterally. As a new joiner, company provided accommodation facility for few days to stay in a PG. Fortunately the route for their residence was same, so they use to sit in the same cab. But as always he was calm and reticent avoiding making unnecessary badinage. Even though they were traveling in the same cab but he didn’t get any chance to speak to her.
On the other side in the organization management was thinking about something wiser attempt to take against some inefficient employees. As it was the recession time, so they are planning to lay off some of them. And he saw the first time in front of his eyes, how they have been sent red signal to leave the company. That moment was very emotional, some of them were crying, some were gabbling, a few well wishers are giving them some solace, good wishes for future, in return they thanked to their closest unwillingly.
But he saw her dripping eyes while saying Goodbye to her friends with whom she shared joy and sorrow. He was transfixed to see her; she is too emotional as he is. Much top management was laughing at laid off employees as if they have shown their strength and is super power of world. But if the management will consider the others emotion as their important aspect then it would be very difficult to run the company. This is corporate world folks, where if you have skill and efficiency, you will be revered or otherwise your ass will be kicked out. There is simple philosophy for most of the organizations:
“Keep the Best, Kick the Rest”
So due to lay off enough vacancy has been created here and there on the floor, management started to shrink all of them so that it should look tidy and keep the eyes on all of them simultaneously. Fortunately she came just in front of his bay. Now he used to see her more frequently.
One good day, while he was about to step up in the cab, she chirpily told him....................
I pray to God, You keep smile,
